Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Day 14 - 131 days to go - still off but dealing

Today was just one of those days.  I won't bore you with all the bitchin' and moanin' about the bumps in the road but they were there.

I kept trying to remind myself of all the good in my life, even though I was still pretty cranky it helped a little.

With a mountain of stuff to do I had easily written off any kind of running for the day.  It was pouring and I was frustrated and overwhelmed.  Nicole reminded me that running is good therapy- when she said it, it was like a lightbulb went on.  So as soon as I found a small window of time, I took my attitude and i-Pod to the gym and ran for 20 minutes.  It wasn't fast and it wasn't far but it felt good and I definitely walked out feeling better than when I walked in.

With the week I've had, it would've been "easier" for me to have blown it off and chalked it up to "too busy."  It would've been "easier" for me to have dug into some ice cream or to have soothed the crankies away with a pizza.  But dealing with the feelings of disappointment in myself and letting myself down - dealing with those emotions that come with letting myself get careless, not easy.  Dealing with tighter pants and a crappy weigh in, not easy.

While my week hasn't been perfect, I'm happy to say that today in the battle of woman vs food.  Woman won.

XO

Jen
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