Sorry for the lack of posts, it's been a strange few weeks with not much to report.
I've been a little bummed- my Weight Watcher meeting has fallen apart. For whatever reasons, WW took away my leader's Sat. morning meeting. I've lost all of my weight with this leader and we were a tight group. I am "making it work" but it's been a tough adjustment. It may sound dramatic and I know that the weight loss and exercise is my journey but that meeting has been a tremendous support to me. If you know anything about food addicts and emotional eaters (which I consider myself somewhere between the two) we need very little excuse to justify falling backwards. My first reaction to this news was well "f'in WW is screwing me over. Great. Now I'm going to gain my weight back because I'm never going to a meeting again." By the way, this was the reaction of quite a few other members.
I know, I know. That's a childish and ridiculous reaction. Dropping out and eating doesn't hurt WW it hurts me. I've become rational enough to recognize that but this childish, gut reaction is what happens to many of us in these situations.
Ultimately, it's my journey. I will not sabotage my efforts anymore because of issues. I will deal. I will put on my big girl pants and accept that sh*t happens and work it out. While it sucks, it's an opportunity to grow, evolve and take something away from it.
So with that, I've been bouncing around with my weight but keeping it contained. I am tracking and keeping a stricter eye on stuff.
Heat has been ON! Today is another 100+ day with high humidity.
Thankfully, I've been getting some miles in at the gym - but I've been having a real tough time turning the corner in running longer. (Though I'm happy to say that I've been running faster!)
It's so easy to go for 2 - 4 miles but there's something about venturing beyond lately. Partly because I hate running in heat and I hate running more than 4mi. on a treadmill… sigh.
I think having a lack of a real event on the calendar is causing a lack of direction. I am "pretty sure" that I'm running something in Atlantic City on October 16th - haven't committed to the half or full but probably leaning towards the half. It's tough having fuzzy goals and vague idea of what I'm doing - so that's not motivating me to do long runs either. Hmmm. I can't seem to pull the trigger on either because if I pay for the half, I know that I'm going to feel like I'm wimping out but won't push myself to train up to the full and if I pay for the full, I'm going to kick myself when I see that I have to get an 18 mile run in during the busy and hot weeks ahead.
WAH, WAH, WAH.
Jeeze. This posts sounds way more whiney than I meant it to sound!
In spite of all this whining - summer has been going along and I'm enjoying it.
How are you dealing with the heat? What races are you training for? How do you get motivated to do longer runs if you don't have a race on the calendar?
Hope summer is treating you well :)
XO
Jen
6 comments:
Do you hear yourself!?! You're saying 13.1 miles is "wimping out!" Don't put so much pressure on yourself. You're an inspiration and a RUNNER!
Ha… Yeah - that's ridiculous. LOL - still disappointed over my last full so was tossing the idea around. Though, the reality of those long runs… UH, I just can't myself pumped up for it.
'we need very little excuse to justify falling backwards.' I know exactly how you feel! I feel like I have every excuse in the world not to eat right and I have put on some weight since Pittsburgh - not happy, but I am dealing with it.
I am in a running rut, but I ran 6.55 miles on Saturday and it was awesome - slower than usual, but I sad I would be okay with that and I was and that made all the difference in the world for me.
IT IS HOTTER THAN HOT HERE TOO! Not cool.
In terms of my racing? I scaled back. It is the only thing to do if I want to run the Goofy in January. I am running a 1/4 (instead of a Half) in September and I may or may not run a half in October.
Jen, you are not whimping out - people keep telling me the way we feel is normal. Take some time for yourself - you deserve it girl and I admire you no matter how FAR you run.
Thinking of you!!!
Been missing you but glad you posted today and are keeping it real.
You are strong. You are a warrior. You will overcome this just like you have everything that has happened to you since we 'met' each other.
Keep pushing and great things will come.
I just found your blog through Words to Run By... I have been following Sara for a few months now.
I see you are a WW. Me too. I have been a lifetimer for over 20 years... mostly recently under my goal since Sept '07. I go regularly to meetings to stay that way! Losing a favorite leader can be very upsetting and sometimes we just find it hard to relate to the replacement. I am struggline with that right now too.
Even if you cannot get into the new leader, don't use that as an excuse to sabotage your program and your weight loss. It is something you are doing for YOU and obviously you have done very well so far. Wahooo!
Stuff happens. Don't eat your feelings. :)
you've got this, everyone goes through it. hang in, keep at it, just don't stop.
: )
Post a Comment